Rough Draft Month Report #3
Nov. 16th, 2024 09:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bedesPath: Moonlight Trail
My goal: 25,000
Minimum words to hit each day: 834
Current word count: 11,837
Current average words per day: 789
My motivation was temporarily boosted by writing "An Excerpt From the Biography of the Devourer of All Things Horrible" (under the temp title "History Hates Lovers"), and I've gotten more comments on it in just a few days than I have on all of my works combined for the past few months. People are very sweet, and that makes me happy.
But, immediately after that, my mental got bad again. I've been struggling really hard to write. I literally only got out of bed at 6pm today; I spent the rest of the day sleeping. I wrote precisely 33 words yesterday, and that was a bullet point list of low-effort things I could write today. Today, this blog is probably all I'll write, but I might make a small attempt at writing a review of the game Cold Front.
Again, I feel the urge to quit the challenge entirely. But I'm trying to compromise with myself first, see if that's a possible way to go about things. Even if I don't meet my goal, that's okay, right...? I didn't make my goal last year, and that was fine. Or maybe I could adjust my goal to 20k, or maybe even just 15k.
I think what's really killing me is this idea of an "average daily word count". Missing even one day messes with the average so bad, and I feel like I've failed massively every time I fuck up and can't do my 834. Which isn't great when you're currently fighting with everything you have to just keep staying alive.
I dunno. I'm tired, even though I slept in as much as I did... I think I'll consider changing my word count goal the most heavily. I need a win right now.
My goal: 25,000
Minimum words to hit each day: 834
Current word count: 11,837
Current average words per day: 789
My motivation was temporarily boosted by writing "An Excerpt From the Biography of the Devourer of All Things Horrible" (under the temp title "History Hates Lovers"), and I've gotten more comments on it in just a few days than I have on all of my works combined for the past few months. People are very sweet, and that makes me happy.
But, immediately after that, my mental got bad again. I've been struggling really hard to write. I literally only got out of bed at 6pm today; I spent the rest of the day sleeping. I wrote precisely 33 words yesterday, and that was a bullet point list of low-effort things I could write today. Today, this blog is probably all I'll write, but I might make a small attempt at writing a review of the game Cold Front.
Again, I feel the urge to quit the challenge entirely. But I'm trying to compromise with myself first, see if that's a possible way to go about things. Even if I don't meet my goal, that's okay, right...? I didn't make my goal last year, and that was fine. Or maybe I could adjust my goal to 20k, or maybe even just 15k.
I think what's really killing me is this idea of an "average daily word count". Missing even one day messes with the average so bad, and I feel like I've failed massively every time I fuck up and can't do my 834. Which isn't great when you're currently fighting with everything you have to just keep staying alive.
I dunno. I'm tired, even though I slept in as much as I did... I think I'll consider changing my word count goal the most heavily. I need a win right now.
